He told me, ?uncle Ilie?- he was 10 years younger than I- ?take care who you speak with, there are rumors reaching us- the party comrades have disquieting plans as far as you?re concerned?. I did not pay any attention, I had always had a big mouth and I thought it would go over. What disadvantaged me most was Ion Ianosi, who was my scientific supervisor, who was consulted on the matter, and instead of protecting me by telling that I was in fact choosing an interpretative symbolism in a multiple meaning and the resulting attitude was a condemnation of the totalitarianism of fascist type- instead of that, he said, ?yes, I was aware of the fact that Rosianu is walking on a very slippery ground?. If there had been any hope for me to defend my thesis, his attitude destroyed it and I didn?t receive the recommendation of the County Party Organization.

After the Revolution I wanted to defend my thesis though, it was after all my work, and then, what do you think Ianosi told me, in front of Vladutescu, Puiu Moraru and somebody else, right at the University,? if you didn?t take your degree then, why do you want to have it now??(I. P., 134)

No, it wasn?t better under any circumstance; you weren?t allowed to tell one?s opinion and you couldn?t be yourself; you had to hide behind a mask that you?d put when getting out of the house and take it off when coming back to one?s family. It was as if you were two people in one. (M. C. J., 108)